Sing to Me Katy Perry

Katy, did you write it for me? With my whole heart I write: every woman living with domestic abuse or violence, especially with a sociopath/psychopath should embrace everything about this song, especially the video!


When I was little girl just before everything bad began to happen in my life, I was 4 years old, we sold our home that was in the middle of a neighborhood of my whole family, lost our family dog when my mom gave her away, even at 4 I can remember not wanting to go, clinging to my family and feeling such loss at not being near my Grandpa and cousins anymore. We went to look at the new house with the realtor and my parent’s where signing the offer, I wandered out back to the white three post farm fence that lined the property and in the creative mind of a fearful child who didn’t want to lose the home, family and dog she was giving up, I saw a shiny blue butterfly sticker on the white fence, I smiled and was immediately enthralled with it. I will never forget the moment, the sun shining brightly down, and all the sudden as I went to touch the sticker the blue butterfly came to life and flew away, the “sticker” was gone. It was so real my mind convinced me I saw it, but I never told a soul about it until I shared the story with my husband a year or so ago. I realize that it didn’t really happen and it was my little mind trying to create magic in this place I didn’t want to be.


I gasped for breath as I watched the childhood Katy in the video hand Katy a magical blue butterfly that flies from Katy’s hands at the end, after all the madness was gone and she was finally “letting go”. Almost like a sign, one of so many that have been telling me I too should let go, yet I just somehow can’t. Katy shows you in the beginning she’s been through something but she came out on top, just like women in abusive relationships or that have suffered childhood abuse can. As far as life with a sociopath goes this song and video could be written just for this situation. The strawberry represents the abuser or sociopath, and the temptation they send out to the victim of their choice. The victim can hardly resist the allure and charm of the sociopath, hence taking a bite of the strawberry represents falling under the spell that you will fall under in their grips. After she bites the strawberry everything begins to fall apart. You see the light she’s trying to hold onto get sucked out of her and up into the darkness just the way a sociopath will take the light from your soul, some of us never get it back, but we can if we fight for it, just like she does. “The story’s over now the end”. The story being the life of lies you’ve lived being with a sociopath, your life became a story, not real, all stories must come to an end.


The lyrics “I was in the dark” or getting more submerged into the depths of darkness and lies of the sociopath. “How could I read the stars so wrong”, how could you not know what this person was from the beginning, how could you be so caught under the spell? That is answer everyone who has “fallen” for a sociopath and their lies asks themselves when they come to see what’s under the mask and how fake their life has been. How could I believe he wouldn’t hurt me like this, how could I not see? I too had a damaged child within me allowing me to more easily fall victim to the temptation of biting that strawberry. That little girl needs me like I need her, we only have each other to rely on now. She thinks she is weak but she isn’t, and she can help break the debilitating spell I am under, bound to a world of abuse and lies. “I was fallen hard, with an open heart, yeah I was dreamin for so long, I wish I knew then what I know now, wouldn’t dive in, wouldn’t bow down, gravity hurts but you made it so sweet, till woke up, on the concrete”. A sociopath much like a strawberry will make it so sweet, they will crawl into a sensitive open heart and make you feel amazing until the moment comes when you serve no more purpose for them and you will crash from the high, you WILL be Wide Awake when you hit and realize you were dreaming for so long, if you only knew then what you know now you would have run far away and never bitten that strawberry!


Much like the video, I need my inner child to save this spellbound adult, to grab me from my wheelchair, if you will, and run like we’ve never run before, run and never look back. I thought my sociopath was my knight in shining armor too, my prince on a white horse, but his fingers have always been crossed behind his back, they have all been lies, his face wearing masks worn to keep me spellbound, trapped in the web just like the two masked men in the video. Just like the prince on the horse with fingers crossed behind his back because he’s only a liar. Everything about this video eerily reminds me of my life. Childhood Katy in a heart covered dress and little pink sweater, two of my very favorite things as a child and adult, hearts and the color pink. She rides away finally free from all that saddened and destroyed her, she is strong and so am I. Much like Katy in the video I will eventually be okay, the amazing proverbial blue butterfly at the end tells me so. The bite of the “strawberry” debilitated me as did the lack of strength and self-worth felt by the little girl inside me, but we shall save each other and together be free. What an inspiration Katy’s work is to women in abusive relationships, what an inspiration she is for any survivor of abuse of any kind. At some point you must be ready to go and you must crumble to rebuild. You’ll try to hold on, you’ve tried to see the Brightside but one day you won’t be blind anymore. You’ll be Wide Awake, you’ll be okay. I hope and am waiting for this myself one day soon! Thank you Katy Perry for your inspiration to women and men everywhere who suffer abuse it’s as if you’ve been through it yourself.


Life With A Sociopath

Affair With The Darkside

bella.ireland@lifewithasociopath.net

Lyrics Katy Perry Wide Awake

I'm wide awake

I'm wide awake

I'm wide awake Yeah, I was in the dark I was falling hard With an open heart I'm wide awake How did I read the stars so wrong? I'm wide awake And now it's clear to me That everything you see Ain't always what it seems I'm wide awake Yeah, I was dreaming for so long

[Pre-Chorus] I wish I knew then What I know now Wouldn't dive in Wouldn't bow down Gravity hurts You made it so sweet 'Til I woke up on On the concrete

[Chorus] Falling from cloud nine Crashing from the high I'm letting go tonight Yeah, I'm falling from cloud nine

I'm wide awake Not losing any sleep I picked up every piece And landed on my feet I'm wide awake Need nothing to complete myself, no

I'm wide awake Yeah, I am born again Out of the lion's den I don't have to pretend And it's too late The story's over now, the end

[Pre-Chorus] I wish I knew then What I know now Wouldn't dive in Wouldn't bow down Gravity hurts You made it so sweet 'Til I woke up on On the concrete

[Chorus] Falling from cloud nine (it was out of the blue) I'm crashing from the high I'm letting go tonight (yeah, I'm letting you go) I'm falling from cloud nine

I'm wide awake Thunder rumbling Castles crumbling I'm wide awake I am trying to hold on I'm wide awake God knows that I tried Seeing the bright side I'm wide awake I'm not blind anymore...

I'm wide awake I'm wide awake

[Chorus] Yeah, I'm falling from cloud nine (it was out of the blue) I'm crashing from the high You know I'm letting go tonight (yeah, I'm letting you go) I'm falling from cloud nine

I'm wide awake

I'm wide awake

I'm wide awake

I'm wide awake

I'm wide awake

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